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Post by alayna vladimer on Mar 22, 2008 23:47:12 GMT -5
 Acetone Productions [color=7be0fd ] PRESENTS[/color] a tale of love
of a teenager trying to find a way
and of decietful lies
that tore her apart
and of a family
fighting to stay on top
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Post by alayna vladimer on Mar 22, 2008 23:47:47 GMT -5
- A Little About The Cowgirl Behind The Mask
- Soul Needs To Be Free - Her Life Story
- Home is Where The Heart Is - Her Family
- Pictures Speak A Thousand Words - Pics
- The Sadness In Me - Loosing Tristan, Mommas, and Rascal
- A Healing Heart - AJ, the man Im falling harder and harder for
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Post by alayna vladimer on Mar 22, 2008 23:48:07 GMT -5
*General Stuff*
My Calling Shall Be
Ace or Shelby
I Have Partied
16 springs
*Go Into Details*
My Home
at the moment im livin with my grandparents
on a small 1.5 acre lot
in a nice neighborhood
with a LARGE pond
The Music
anything from heavy metal to country
The Rate
Life: too dramatic..i want to live it and be FREE
RP Life:kinda busy
The Books
I love all Fantasy Books
*The Inside Story*
House Pets
5 Dogs
a cat
and 1 pig(yes he lives in the house)
Personality
Im the type of person that loves to have a good time. Im serious when the occasion calls for it but when Im around close friends I can and will go insane.
My Motivation
My music, my life
The Normal Look
cowgirl clothes, and sometimes emo clothes
The Love of Present
AJ
The Love of Past
my ex fiance, Jordan
Justin
Josh...wow i dated a lot of Js
Chris
and Ryan
The Hates of Present
MY EX STEPMOTHER
*The Made*
Tonto
Native Dancer
*The One In Waiting*
none
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Post by alayna vladimer on Mar 22, 2008 23:48:45 GMT -5
- My childhood was not great by any means. My dad was only 19 when I was born my mom 16. Neither were ready to have a kid. My dad was a recovering alcoholic and my mom was a sleeper, alcoholic and druggie all rolled into one. Not exactly the best thing for a girl to grow up in. I realized at a VERY young age that I was mature...more mature than I should be only because of what Ive been through. For years my mom would make promises..never keep them, and take me to her boyfriends houses and just let me fend for myself. I learned pretty quick how to take care of myself. She would take me away from my dad and disappear with me for months at a time. My mom and Dad got divorced when I was two. That was when my grandma, my moms mom, stepped in. She pretty much helped raise me to begin with and then she finally pulled the plug. She faught for custody of me and for my first five years I lived with her in Montana. It was the best fun I ever had. That was where I met my cuzins Brady and Kyle.
- That was when my dad came up from Texas and took me away from her. He had gotten his head on straight and thought that since my mom turned out so bad that I would do if left in my grandmas hands. He took me back down to Texas with him and I met his new wife and her son. My grandma moved down to Texas along with my half brother, my mom had left him on her doorstep, and that was by far the best thing of those three years. My dad had picked the worst wife I thought possible. I wasnt very old and yet this was like a Cinderella story. She made me work, clean and cook. My dad had enlisted in the army so while he was away doing his training the wife was left with me. She abused me in every way possible. I was a big tom boy and I got to the point where I had just given up and got to the point where I would get in trouble at school for stealing, fighting, and backmouthing. I became a really bad kid.
- Then my dad finally opened his eyes. I had gotten so bad under her rule that I almost went to juvi and the abuse finally went to him. My dad finally decided a divorce was necessary. after three years. I had a three year old little sister but Daphne, the step mom, had been granted custody with weekend rights to my dad. MY gma has the same rights with my dad, I go over to her house every other weekend. Well anyways, we had no where else to go. My dads mom, called NANA, was the only one who would take us in. She lived in a nice neighborhood and I was so bad I got a rude wake up call. My nana whiped me straight and in my first year there I started getting better. I lived with my nana for four years. Occasionally I would go back upt o Montana to hang with the horses and my cousins, but I mostly stayed in Texas. That was when my dad almost got married again. Until he went to Iraq. My dad was gone for a year and when he came back he found a stronger daughter waiting for him. He even said himself that I had changed a lot.
- Wife #3. That was where Brenda came in. At first she was really cool and I liked her. She already had three kids. The year that they were together though was when me and my dad started fighting constently. We were always at odds for stupid things. It took me a long time to realize the reason I was getting in trouble was because Brenda was using me to get to him and vice versa. She was the one who gave me Rascal and Tristan as foals. I raised them and that was about the only thing that me and my dad was training those horses. Me and my dad finally moved out of Nanas house and bought a house with Brenda. One big enough for the five kids that we had. Her three, me and my little sister. That was a bad idea. First off that hadnt even been together a year before we did that, then they got married right after buying the house. The house cost way to much for them. We ended up in debt when both of them lost their jobs. We kept trying to get back on our feet and that was where all the drama and fighting really hit a peak.
- These past few months had been really bad. Me and my dad were constently at odds for no good reason. I never did anything but he was always mad at me. Then I began to realize, even though I trusted Brenda, she was tryig to get me pushed out of my dads life. This past year was when I started cutting myself again and taking depression meds. IT was just getting so bad for me I wanted out. My grandma lived nearby and she said whenever I wanted to leave that she would come and get me no questions asked. IT was the night I tried to move out that my dad finally realized how bad it was for me. I was in the middle of a cat fight and he was so ashamed of using me like that. He saw the meds that my friends were getting me and the cuts all over my arm. It was only then when things got worse. I didnt know about this but Brenda had been violent for some time. She kept throwing things at my dad. Divorce was on the way again.
- Last thanksgiving was when I finally took the worst turn I could make. A man that I grew up with, was dating and someone I trusted raped me at a party. The sad thing was that Brenda was at that party..she knew what was going on and she didnt do anything. I just found this out a few days ago. I was beatin nearly to death and I called my cuzins and as soon as they could they came all the way down from Montana to come to my rescue. I just couldnt face my dad so they helped me. As soon as I got home my dad looked at me and shook his head, he knew. IT was only when he took a closer look at me and saw how badly beat up I was that he finally became the dad I wanted him to be. He was upset with me for not calling him first but he rushed me to the hospital and told me that Brenda had called him and said that she had followed me and said that she had seen me having sex with him. I told him my story of what really happened and that was when he blew his cork. She had let me get raped and beaten.
- About a month later was when I found out that I was pregnant. MY couins had stayed in town to be with me, cause truthfully I was scared nutsless and still am, and they went with me when I had an abortion. A pretty rough thing to go through for guys, but they loved me and said they would not leave my side until I wanted them to. I owe Brady, and Kyle a whole lot. Not long after that me and my dad moved out. Moved back into Nanas house, and she aint happy about it. The moving day was rough. It was me, my cousins, dad, and two of his friends, Brenda brought her whole dang family. They stole half of our stuff and the cops had to be called because brenda got VERY violent. That was a very rough day. For awhile my dad let me go up to Montana to work things out. But now Im back in texas. That is my life strory and now that my dad is going back to Iraq im hoping I wont make the same mistake twice.
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Post by alayna vladimer on Mar 22, 2008 23:49:14 GMT -5
- My Dad} Even though me and my dad have had our problems. I still love him. He was there for me when my mom wasnt. My dad is an army man and hes so strong. I love him more than I think I can ever love any man. Though he has a VERY bad taste in woman I dont hold that against him. Hes a cowboy that pretty much loves to make me laugh. In our family if youre not dead or dying its funny. As a matter of fact we fell in the pond yesterday. My dad never goes anywhere in shorts. Well ea he does sometimes but youll rarely see him wearing those. My dad is VERY protective of me. The song cleanin this gun by Rodney Atkins seems to ring a bell when I think of my dad. Hes about to go to Iraq for a second time and he really doesnt want to leave me here. Hes very proud of what he does and he has no idea how proud I am of him.
- My Mom} there isnt much I can say about my mom. All she has done is cause me and my family pain. I hav no idea how many times I have stayed up all night on days she has promised to come over. When she doesn come around she swears up and down that she is better and she will be for a couple of months. But then she starts stealing and leaves. The last time I heard from her was last summer after over 3 years. She said she thought it was about time to get back in my life and I told her if she dared come anywhere near us then I would beat the living snot out of her. I gave her quite a few threats that I knew I would uphold if she ever came around. I dont want her hurting my little brother. I dont want him having to go through the pain I went through.
- Half Brother & Half Sister} My lil brother isnt a bad kid. He was left on my grandmas doorstep when he was just a baby and his dad was just about as bad as my mom, so he really didnt know his parents very well. My grandma has done th best she can to raise him though shes a little too leniant. He hangs out with kids that he really shouldnt be hanging out with and I swear he will turn into a gang banger. And hes constently getting in trouble in school. My lil sister is living with her mom, Daphne, and is a little weiny! She cries over EVERYTHING. Im not even kidding. Where I am strong shes a little baby. Shes fat and her mom is pretty much treating her the same way she treated me. My lil sis plucks out her eyebrows and is constently offended. Teaching that girl to ride a bike and to swim was murder. But when she stayed with me and dad over the summer she lost a lot of weight and she had a better personality. Im VERY protective of her.
- Brady, Kyle and Bella} I spent most of my younger years with Brady and Kyle. They are two years older than me and we get along great. Brady, Kyle and me love to just do the work on their dads ranch without complaint than run out and play all night. We rode in trucks by Luke Bryon is definetely our song. Brady is the big party boy whos the ladies man. Brady is the one that always got us in the most trouble. He would never think of what he was doing. Kyle is the more sensible and sensitive one. A womans dream. He loves to play and mess around and get into trouble like us but he tends to think about things first. Like the time we took our dirt bikes off the cliff into the lake. Not a good idea. We did it but he stayed back and was like nope.lol. The only bad thing that he ever did, and it wasnt even a bad thing, was when he got his girlfriend pregnant his freshman year. Yea he was a freshman. He took responsibility for his actions and I actually think that he is a great dad. Bella is now four and her mom had abandoned her. All she has are Brady and Kyle.
- Nana & Grandma} You will never meet 2 completely different people. I prefer my grandma over Nana but they both are really good grandparents. Nana is the strict one who goes by the bible. One day she made me read the thou shalt not lie crap. Shes really not that bad, I mean shes helped me alot, but we butt heads all the time. My grandma on the other hand is AWSOME! I tell her pretty much everything and we always mess around. She too holds a passion for horses and shes helping me get my career started. This summer Ill be staying with her and interning at a vet place nearby. I owe everything to my grandma. I mean come on she moved all the way down from Montana just to be with me.
- Jonnie and Isabella} Its kind of confusing. This bella and the other bella were born during the same week and named pretty much the same names. Jonnie is my moms sister and she too is living with my grandma. Her daughter is ISabella and I swear I love this little girl more than anything. Jonnie has a strict side but sometimes she jst loves to kick back and wrestle with me and Bella. Shes really a great mom though she doesnt go and do stuff with Bella.Shed rather sit at home. Isabella i a REALLY bubbly little girl that has just so much personality that you cant help but love her. Me and grandma get in trouble all the time for laughing at her when shes in trouble. Shes just the cutest little girl ever made.
My Family is HUGE I cant talk about them all
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Post by alayna vladimer on Mar 22, 2008 23:50:09 GMT -5
Loosing My Best Friends
- Ok well this past week the worst thing posible happened to me. Everyone knows that I had 3 horses. Tristan, Rascal and Mommas. Well Tristan and Rascal were given to me by Brenda and her family. To get back at my dad she came and took them. I came home from school and they were gone. My neighbor said she saw her take them and had videotaped it. I watched the video and Rascal didnt fight that much, its not really in his nature. But my beloved Tristan fought bad. MY step and her dad had to blindfold Tristan and hobble him to get him into the trailer. I cant believe that witch took them from me. Rascal and Tristan were my gifts and she suddenly believed she could take them back. I cried for hours and fell asleep in Tristans stall. As for mommas, she had gotten pregnant when Tristan got out one day, so I let my cousins take her back to Montana. She belongs on the ranch. Im so upset about loosing my best friends. They were like my babies and now they are gone.
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Post by alayna vladimer on Mar 22, 2008 23:50:34 GMT -5
My Songs
- Breaking Benjamin - Breath
- Seether - Broken
- Gretchen Wilson - Redneck Woman
- Sick Puppies - All The Same
- Lady Antebellum - Love Dont Live Here Anymore
- Rodney Atkins - Cleanin This Gun
- Luke Bryon - We Rode In Truck
- LimpBizkit - Behind Blue Eyes
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Post by alayna vladimer on Mar 22, 2008 23:51:00 GMT -5
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Post by alayna vladimer on Mar 22, 2008 23:51:30 GMT -5
A Healing Heart
- Well I havnt had the greatest taste in men. Kind of my curse. Ive had my heart broken so many times this past year that I didnt think it would ever heal. Until the last snow day. I REALLY didnt want to drive that day because I knew the weatehr was supposed to be really bad so I asked my friend to give me a ride. And he did. Turns out he gives three other guys rides and one of them was AJ. My first thought was wow that boy is fine but I didnt really do anything about it that morning. That afternoon school was let out like 3 hours early for the people that were driving and the parking lot was a HUGE snowball fight, and me and AJ flirted like no other. He seemed pretty cool then, though I admit I did not know him very well so I really didnt want to say anything. Until I just could not get him out of my mind.
- The next week my friend, the one who gave me a ride & AJs best friend, Zach told AJ that I liked him and who wouldve thought it but he liked me too! At first he did nothing when Zach gave him my number but after I kept riding with Zach instead of driving he finally called me. I normally spend only five minutes on the phone with someone but that first night we talked for over an hour and a half. The only reason we stopped there was because my phone died. For the next three days I talked to AJ and its been like a week and we just cant stop talking to eachother. Hes always laughing with me and at me, always saying how beautiful he thinks I am, and just so many things. Our personalities are almost exactly the same, we like the same movies, same foods. Last night I talked to him from 8:30pm to 1 am. I just cant get him out of my mind and I swear hes making me feel wanted, like Im actually worth the effort of a relationship. My heart is healing and I believe that Im falling REALLY hard for this boy.
- This monday AJ decided he wanted to take me to the movies but he didnt have a ride. I managed to convince my grandma, who im staying with for the spring break, to go up and get him. So we did and for a couple of hours AJ just hung out with me, my gma, my aunt, tyler, and bella until we went to the movies. We just played outside the entire time and AJ actually got along with Tyler and Bella. My aunt even said that she liked him and asked if he had any uncles that were single. So yea we flirted and stuff at the house and then we went to the movies. We saw Never Back Down, and the movie was amazing though sometimes we didnt watched the movie. *wink**wink*. The guy in front of us actually got angry and told us to stop making out and disturbing his movie. When it was over we walked over to the Western Werehouse and I swear I busted out laughing because I made him put on a cowboy hat and boots. Then we walked over to Jack In The Box and ate there before we had to take him home. It was amazing and I just couldnt stop kissing him.
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