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Post by Jake Ellison on Mar 15, 2008 20:00:50 GMT -5
It couldn't be that bad, could it? Jake and Ashlynn walked across the campus park, the same way that they'd gotten to class except headed off towards the boy's dormitory instead of the girls where Jake had picked up Ashlynn this morning. He hoped that Ashlynn didn't mind having Jake's arm around her, he didn't want to make her uncomfortable or rush her into anything like that. Jake couldn't help but laugh when she said that the drivers here in california are alot different from those back in brooklyn.
When Ashlynn said that she wanted to hear about Jake, rather than boring him about her life or scarying him with it. I'm sure it's not that bad; not to many things scare me, Jake told her; he wasn't trying to sound all cocky and macho by saying he wasn't afriad of anything he just found it hard to imagine that he would be scared of what her life was like, it couldn't be that bad, could it? They made their way to the parking lot by the boys dorm; and Jake took the keys from his shorts pocket and popped the upper portion of the trunk; so they could put their school things and such in the trunk. Jake carelessy through his backpack in and waited a few moments for Ashlynn to put her things. Then opened his mouth to speak and said; So what do you want to know first about me? he asked her leaning against his black car. |
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Post by ashlynn cortez on Mar 15, 2008 20:13:27 GMT -5
♥ashlynn.
BABY, YOU AND I COULD BE A REAL TRAGEDY.
Following him across the park, and waiting patiently as he popped the trunk, she quickly tossed in her backpack carelessly. It wasn't like there was anything important in there anything. As he spoke, she glanced up at him with an almost sad smile. "I'm sure reality would," She murmured softly, mentally adding, The truth would too. Shaking her head, she crossed her arms over her chest and took a step forward that brought her directly by his side. Promptly, she hopped onto the truck and sat, staring down blankly at her feet.. When he spoke a final time, she slowly rose her dark blue eyes to meet his own.
"What makes you happy.." She paused, cutting her eyes at him with a soft laugh. "And why don't you have a girlfriend?" Her tongue left her mouth, running over her lower lip as she cocked her head, playfully edging to where he was leaned against the trunk and leaned forward, placing her chin on his shoulder. Of course, anyone could mistake this for either a flirty, or friendly gesture. Who knew, considering it was Ash?
"I mean, not to add to your ego or anything, Bear, but you're cute, and you seem nice enough. So why're you playing the role of Mr. Lonely?"
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Post by Jake Ellison on Mar 15, 2008 20:45:56 GMT -5
Jake continued leaning against the back of his car; near the trunk as Ashlynn put her chin on his shoulder; although through the whole time he's spent with Ash in the past 24 hours he's been pretty calm and his heart has been pretty normal; but as ashlynn set her chin on his shoulder; his heart beat jumped, and quickened it's pace; which sent a smile on his face in her direction. When she asked 'what makes you happy?' he reverted his eyes away from Ash for a moment while he thought about it; then looked into her stunning deep blue eyes and smiled and said; spending time with my family, horses and hanging out with you makes me happy, he smiled as he said it; hinting at the feelings that he was starting to have for her. Then she asked him why he didn't have a girlfriend. He laughed softly for just a moment, then leaned in a little bit closer to her than they already were.
There is one thing that scares me, you wanna know a secret? he said with a coy smile resting on his lips; he hadn't really admitted it to anyone since he'd been here at canterbury because it was kind of stupid, or whatever. But it was the explanation to why a guy like him didn't have a girlfriend. Plus just because he might have a big ego and a cocky attitude at times; he was kind of an emotional guy deep down inside. He did want a real relationship between him and a girl; he wasn't like some of the other typical jocks that just wanted a girl so they could get in their pants; no- Jake wasn't like that. His secret would also reveal why he was Mr. Lonely at the time; with no girlfriend.
Then without letting Ashlynn speak up to answer if she wanted to hear his secret or not; he turned around and swiftly picked her up on his back for a piggy back ride and moved away from the trunk and slammed it shut; then wisked Ashlynn over to the passenger side of the car and opened it for her, then backed up and set her down on the seat. A smile that concealed his laughter rested upon his face as he leaned against the door and smiled at Ashlynn. |
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Post by ashlynn cortez on Mar 15, 2008 20:59:45 GMT -5
♥ASHLYNN.
LETS GET SO WASTED.
that we don't care if we fall in love
If her heart had been beating insanely before, when he told her what made him happy and said that hanging out with her made him happy, she flushed, scarlet blazing across her porcelain cheeks and she looked away, her hands trembling instinctively. As he leaned closer, she felt her lower jaw tremble, teeth chattering together momentarily as if she were cold.
"You make me happy, too."
She whispered underneath her breath, then quickly looked away as he leaned closer. 'There is one thing that scares me, wanna know a secret?' Again, her gaze swept up to him. Like they say, curiosity killed the cat. The cat in this scenario was none other than miss Ashlynn herself. Her teeth sunk into her lower lip, ignoring the frantic pounding of her heart to stare him directly in the eyes. However, before he could answer, he swept her up for a piggy-back ride and she was quickly reduced to giggles. Laughing hysterically, she buried her face into the side of his neck instinctively, squealing softly as she wrapped her arms around his neck, clinging to him as if she feared she'd slip and fall and hit the ground at any given moment.
She inhaled against his neck with a smile, shivering at the warmth obtained from simply being so close to him. Soon enough, he swung around to the passenger's side of the car and she was soon plopped down into the seat. Laughing softly, she looked up at him, smiling happily. Staring up at him, she tilted her head, curiosity claiming her gaze once more. "So, what's the secret?" She murmured softly, his coy smile had sent chills down her spine before and her pulse racing.
Just WHAT was he doing to her?
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Post by Jake Ellison on Mar 15, 2008 21:36:17 GMT -5
Jake's smile intensified when Ashylnn told him that he made her happy too. As he stood against the passenger door infront of Ashlynn, he smiled and said; You'll have to wait in suspense for a few seconds more, then he put a hand on her legs and tucked them into the car and closed the door. Jogging around the car to the driver's side and pulled the door open and hopped in. He stuck the keys in the ignition and started up the car, before turning to Ashlynn to finally tell her this time.
Alright the secret is... fake drumroll on the center console of the car; then stopped and turned serious once more his eyes concealing laughter though, he hushed his voiced down and looked around outside the car- trying to be funny, to make sure no one was watching or listening. He smiled at Ash and finally spoke up; This is going to sound ridiculous, but alot of the girls here at Canterbury scare me.. he said looking at her hoping that she would burst into a hysterical laughing fit or something. They all look like walking barbie dolls, which their fake ugly orange tans and caked on make-up he made a disgusted face when he spoke of it, Also how some of them act dumb, just because they think that the guys like that, some may- but that's really another huge turn-of for me... Jake spilled all of this out to her; hoping that she didn't think it was so huge dork for thinking this.
Then Jake really looked at her, and starred into her deep blue eyes for a moment; that's why I like you so much, your so different from the other girls here; and you have a great sense of humor, he said with a smile then realizing he'd just out right openly confessed to her that he liked her, he sat back into his seat and buckled his belt and placed his hands on the wheel and stared out the front of the care glancing at Ashlynn from the corner of his eye for a moment, he had no idea what type of reaction that Ashlynn was going to give him. So he waited their for a moment letting her process everything and take it all it. |
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Post by ashlynn cortez on Mar 15, 2008 21:49:30 GMT -5
♥ASHlynn.
DO YOU THINK I COULD STAY HERE FOR A WHILE?
When his hand touched her legs, she couldn't help the fact that her eyes widened and she glanced up at him, blinking rapidly. Soon enough, he gently moved her legs from the way of the door and shut it. Soon, he returned to the driver's side and slid in. Then came the "big secret." As he spoke the fist sentence, she swiftly interrupted with a series of hysterical giggles, unable to control herself. "S-sorry." She stuttered in-between her laughter and clamped her hand over her mouth, forcing her giggles to cease as she stared at him, the corners of her dark eyes crinkling in joy. As he finished his statement, she dropped her hand and let it smack dully against the upholstery. "That's understandable. I know what you mean. It bites than no one believes in maintaining originality anymore, eh?" She murmured softly, staring at him intently.
But then, came the confession.
Her heart was practically imploding in her chest and for a few moments, her emotions went out of whack. From happy, to overjoyed, to remorseful, then a guarded, secretive expression. She closed her eyes, a flicker of pain flashing over her features as she turned quickly, unable to bring herself to face him as she faced the window. "I'm different," She murmured softly, opening her eyes and leaning back against her seat, staring forward. Refusing to look at him and feel her heart skip anymore beats.
"Because I really don't belong here."
She muttered softly, almost in a bitter sense and glanced up at him, frowning somewhat.
"You don't need someone like me, Teddy Be-" She paused, flinching at herself and swallowed. This, wasn't something she was used to. Since she'd been hospitalized, she was always in control. She had to be. Or she'd think about.. those times. Times she wanted to forget every happened. Silence seeped in and in all honesty, Ashlynn wanted nothing more than to cry at this moment. Why was her heart screaming yes while her mind and instincts were telling her hell no?
Maybe it was afraid of going crazy, too.
[/blockquote] STAY WHERE?
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Post by Jake Ellison on Mar 15, 2008 22:28:44 GMT -5
Jake couldn't help but smile when Ash burst into hysterics laughing and giggling in the passenger seat. When she finally calmed down and apologized between her laughter and giggles, he smiled slightly and said; it's alright- I know you probably didn't expect that coming from me, he said with a slight laugh. When she mummered that she was different, Jake started to feel bad for saying that- not meaning that she was different in a bad way, but it a good way in his eyes. When she spoke the words 'i really don't belong here.' Jake then felt confused, she didn't belong here? What did she mean by that..? Jake slowly then got of the courage after confessing just minutes beofre, and softly asked what do you mean, you don't belong here?
Ashlynn didn't see it the way he did, when she spoke that he didn't need someone like her in his life, he shoke his head. Ashlynn.. I really do want to have someone like you in my life- I've had more with you in the past twenty four hours, than I have had any other time in my life- he told her. Even if she was turning him down for anything in the future at least she knew how he felt about her. Then he saw her just staring out the windshield, he thought he saw tears welling up in her eyes. He gently reached out his hand to gentle touch her arm- after unbuckling his seat belt to face her more, Ash, are you okay? He hadn't meant to hurt her, he didn't want to see such a beautiful girl like her crying. |
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Post by ashlynn cortez on Mar 15, 2008 22:39:50 GMT -5
♥ASHlynn.
we could be the next BEST thing
When he first spoke, she grinned in spite of herself. You haven't ceased to amaze me yet, pretty boy. She thought to herself and once he began speaking yet again, she reluctantly let her gaze drift over to his own, tearing her eyes away from the window momentarily. "This life.. everything in it. It's not my style. I'm a bad person, Jake." She whispered in a melancholy tone and as he spoke yet again, she felt her heart beginning to pick up its restless and reckless hammering. Closing her eyes, she sighed, turning to face him as he unbuckled his seat belt and placed his hand on her arm, leaning back against the window.
"I like you, too."
She murmured softly, almost an inaudible whisper. She opened her eyes, looking at him with a guarded, forlorn expression. She stared in his eyes and she could practically feel the rejection he seemed to think she was giving him and quickly she bit her lip. Her patience snapped in a thin moment, and she leaned forward quickly, her hands at once resting on the sides of his face and her lips crashing against his own. Her heart was now hammering in a frenzied beat that made her seem like a drug addict. She almost feared for a few moments that maybe, he could hear it as well, because it was certainly an echo in her head.
She knew that she'd tell him later that this had been a mistake, and that she'd done it out of impulse, but for now, she was just enjoying this moment of sheer bliss. Ashlynn had to make him realize she wasn't right for him, and sure, maybe kissing him like she was now wasn't the best way to go about doing it.. But she just couldn't help it.
[/blockquote] WE'LL BE THE NEW ROMEO AND JULIET.[/font][/center][/blockquote] |
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Post by Jake Ellison on Mar 15, 2008 23:07:37 GMT -5
When she told him that she was a bad person, he shook his head lightly barely to himself. He didn't care what her past was like- he liked how she was no in the present time, and he'd never felt this way about anyone before; he knew he was moving into things way to quickly, but he really felt like he needed to tell Ashlynn how he felt. He'd already started noticing the little things about her; like the way she laughed and giggled, or the way she bit her lip while she was thinking or nervous or whatever, and he was already starting to love even the little things about her. When she then said 'I like you too' it was like he was being hit with a brick, it nearly knocked the breath out of him. But he smiled a half smile at her as he leaned on center console of the car over near Ashlynn.
Then before he even had time to think or say anything, she was kissing him- he couldn't help but kiss her back too. His hand quickly moved his hand to caress the back of her head and his fingers in her hair, as his lips moved over hers. Thing number one zillion that he loved about this girl; she wasn't afraid to make the first move, and he loved when a girl had confidence like this. He kept kissing her for a few more moments, before pulling away gently but kept his hand on her neck gently and moved his thumb over her jawline. He looked into her deep blue eyes, which were melting his heart. He then tried to figure out how to mold his words together to ask her this, Ashlynn, why is it that you think your such a bad person? he asked softly and gently, not wanting to hurt her, and he didn't want to make her tell him anything that she didn't want to talk about.  YES, IT'S TRUE. I'VE GOT A CRUSH ON YOU. |
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Post by ashlynn cortez on Mar 15, 2008 23:22:25 GMT -5
♥ashLYNN.
AM I MORE THAN YOU BARGAINED FOR?
Those few fleeting moments she'd had her mouth crushed against her were probably the only real moments of complete and utter happiness she'd really experienced in a long time, and as he pulled away, she gave him half a smile. His hand rested on the nape of her neck, his thumb stroking along her jawline. Closing her eyes, she braced herself for whatever thing he said next. As he spoke, she opened her eyes, regarding him quietly but intently, "I don't think it, I know it."
She let her hands leave his face and instead put them on his shoulders, letting them rest there idly as watched him intently. "Because, I'm a bad person- I've done bad things and I've been involved in the wrong things. You've got a good life here, Jake. Don't blow it." Ash murmured softly, leaning forward. Her lips brushed against his own and she trembled. She hated this. The feeling of vulnerability. She'd just let herself go.. just for this one day. Then tomorrow, she'd be back to stone cold Ashlynn Cortez again.. Right?
"You can't love someone like me."
Ashlynn whimpered softly, her words almost a plea.
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Post by Jake Ellison on Mar 16, 2008 0:06:43 GMT -5
There was a conflicting battle of emotions running through Jake's head and his heart at the moment, he wanted to listen to what his heart was telling him; that he really liked Ashlynn and he didn't want it any other way; but the confliction with his brain was that Ash was telling him he couldn't fall in love with a girl like her.
Ashlynn...you may not want me to be falling for you, but my heart's set on a different path. He told her slowly and softly, then added knowing it sounded so god darn corny; but he added; and I have to listen to what my heart is telling me.
He then thought it'd be better if they just took off back to their dorms; he didn't want to put Ashlynn through anymore heartbreak and whatnot. He rested his forehead against hers and said softly almost at a whisper; I think I better get you back home for now, He wanted to make things right between them- but he thought he'd caused to much trouble as it was. He then tilted his head up gently and kissed ashlynn's forhead, and then pushed himself back over to sit correctly in the drivers seat, and stuck the keys back in the ignition. |
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Post by ashlynn cortez on Mar 16, 2008 0:24:48 GMT -5
♥ashLYNN.
I COULD NEVER BE THE ONE YOU WANT
As he placed his forehead against her own, she sighed softly, her lower lip trembling. "I really wish this could be different, Jake. She whispered softly and as he pulled away, she bit back the tears as she cleared her throat and nodded. She had failed to even put on her seat belt to begin with, having been sidetracked earlier so now she focused on buckling it securely as if it were the most interesting thing she'd seen in ages. She bit her lip the entire way back to the Campus, letting her mind scold her intensely for even bringing up the fact that he shouldn't love her. Why can't you just shut up and be happy? She asked herself mentally and at that, she sighed outwardly and stared out the window blankly. Ashlynn stared impassively outside, watching as the world blurred on by.
This was something definitely used to. Watching everything pass her by as she stared blankly from the sidelines, that stoic expression tattooed like a scar across her face. But if there was one thing she knew, it was that life was no etch-a-sketch, you couldn't erase your mistakes.. no matter how much you wanted to.
Once they arrived at the parking lot of the girl's dorm, Ashlynn looked at him with a saddened expression. "I'm sorry," She whispered softly and unbuckled her seat-belt, leaning across the car to place a quick kiss on his lips before she opened the door, slamming it shut behind her and running in a quick fashion towards the door, trotting up the steps and retreating inside. Where she was safe from the pain her heart was experiencing.
Love bites.
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